Cold Hard Bitch

Happy birthday, Justin.

One of the best friends ever. If there's a reason to wish I'd never left DC, it's Justin. The extent to which I miss him gets covered by many other things, but it's huge nonetheless.

Maybe DC really is calling. It certainly seems like it lately...

On My Way to Work, But...

Man. After facebooking a few friends from the high school/early college period...I kind of miss the person I used to be. Not just how it felt, but who it was.

And the internet makes the past way too accessible.

In Brief

- Seven in the morning is much to early to wake up, but I do really enjoy my days with Chloe and Malia. While it has its tedious moments, just like anything else ("but it's my tennis racket!" "but I wanted to be the first one in the car!"), it makes me happy to spend time with this family that is so obviously happy and together, and with these girls who still love using sidewalk chalk to make obstacle courses out of the driveway.

- My other jobs continues to be great too, although it's been kind of slow lately. Everyone should come in more while I'm working.

- Having Ben here is incredible. I really hope all his job stuff resolves in the next few days so we can really get down to the business of having fun.

- I miss NH. I want to go back at the end of July when the Allens take vacation. I want to see my cousin learn to walk. I want to see the ocean. I want to make sure the view of Manchester from Shirley Hill remains unchanged. 

- Today I ran five miles with minimal walking. I am pleased.

- Nothing in my life is as dangerous as nostalgia.

Three Cheers for Restaurant Life!

It just might be what can keep me alive.

Also, I've got to stop drunk shopping. While my Amazon purchase is turning out to have been a great decision, it's very dangerous. I should be saving my money for travel and school, not clicking my way to consumer nirvana in the wee hours.

Summer Takes Shape

Not quite the shape I'd expected, and in need of a few tweaks (Ben's presence does have downsides...), but still pretty good. Both jobs have lows in addition to highs, but I like them both a lot. Getting up at 7:30 is rough, I can't deny it, and cocktailing stretches my comfort zone sometimes, but I like them both a lot in different ways...they speak to different parts of me, which is nice. And Ben being here is just awesome.

But I'm growing again. That annoying, nagging mental process where another 2% of your brain comes to life and reveals something new about your life. It's sometimes wonderful, sometimes terrifying, always awesome in the literal sense of the word. It makes me want to cry, to laugh, to walk, to wonder, to hide, and to write...most of all to write, although I haven't yet. Soon, I hope.

Also...I got into the a cappella group I tried out for! It's been a long process, but I finally got through it, and they asked me to join. I'm really excited...it's the kind of thing I should have sought out long go, and now that I have I can tell I'm going to love it. As I've said before, nothing can be Dime, but...it's a way of putting something of myself out there that I've been lacking, and a way of being worth more than either what I can say or what I can write. Also, everyone in it seems cool as hell.

Things I miss: Lost, Becca S, Bethany, my family, high school vision, Dime, winter trips, Beauty, France, New England, J&T, my childhood

Things I'm thrilled to have: my jobs, my brother, new strength (weights etc!), John Irving novels, my Company Store blanket, my blue purse, Tom's plans to visit, stamina for running, perspective - no matter how flawed, my car, 

Neither list complete. Also, summer will not be long enough. I've become sure of it.

Here's to Us - Who's Like Us?

Damn few...

Anyhow. Ben is here. Last night we went out together, and...yeah. Amazing. Ben is here and I'm sososo happy about it.

Yay.

Bar Time

Last night I stayed up til dawn.

It might be a good sumer after all.